You may have started out with good intentions, if plotting out power and political aspirations count. You may have been troubled by injustice, if laws that govern greed exclude your plans. You may have wanted to help, then realized the game is help yourself. You may have disliked the game so you justify playing a few more times until you take enough to shut it down.
The “ends” may have been: shut it down but now the “means” are all around. You may have used the “means” to bring about your “ends” but now you have a debt to pay. So you play to pay and day by day, you become more the monster you set forth to slay. The monster says “obey, obey”.